Wow it has been such a long time since I entered this space.
I’ve had moments when I wanted to write about certain issues but I just left them in my head without penning them down. hmmm.
Current favorite song:
‘As You find me’, Hillsong United
and the verses that speak most to me:
“And I know I don’t deserve this kind of love Somehow this kind of love is who You are It’s a grace I could never add up To be somebody You still want But somehow You love me as You find me.
Who am I To think Your glory needs my praises But if this borrowed breath is Yours Lord Take it all You are faithful and You are gracious And I’m just grateful To think You don’t need a single thing And still You want my heart.”
So, i heard this song only about a month ago at a Youth Service and initially it didn’t really stand out much to me. But recently I started listening more to it and it just spoke more and more to me.
To think of my past, my mistakes, my flaws, I can’t even accept myself for who I am, yet the One who’s greater loves me entirely for who I am.
To think that all these while I’ve felt lost and desperate, my Shepard tells me I’m found, and that I’m found in Him.
To think that even as i struggle in my relationships, with anxiety, attachment issues, self-love and whatnot, my Heavenly Father pours out His love lavishly, never holding back.
And despite all the times I’ve drawn myself away, be it intentional or unintentional, He remains constant, He remains close, He never fails, He never forsakes.
In spite of the gazillion times I’ve failed, faltered and fallen, found myself in the dumps, knees grazed, soul cold, dried up tears; His grace found me at my lowest points, embraced my insecurities, kept the flame in my soul burning even brighter in the damned darkness.
“But you, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high. I call out to the Lord, and He answers me from His holy mountain. I lie down and sleep; I wake again because the Lord sustains me. I will not fear though tens of thousands assail me on every side.”
Psalms 3:3-6
If the Lord can remind me of such truths with a song, He can for you too. ❤
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